Thursday, January 27, 2011

so

I am fat. I don't want to even tell you guys how much I weight. I can't stand myself. I can't believe I let myself go this long. It's over. I'm not gonna live this way anymore. Tomorrow I'm starting a 3month workout regimen. I WILL do it every day. I WILL restrict my intake every day. I WILL drink more water than humanly possibly. I WILL be fitting into those small jeans again.

The sad part is...I still fit into zeros. Just not this ONE PAIR of zeros I used to be able to wear no problem. Can't even get in them. I can wear all of my other jeans still but than one pair. It pisses me off to no end. I'm determined to be able to wear them by summer.

I haven't even been speaking to my former best friend lately. Long story short, she got a boyfriend, got with him after knowing him for not even a month, and has already gone almost all the way with him. She has taken his side in some issues she should not have, and defended him when he accused me of a crime he committed. When I was able to confront her, she said she did not feel sorry and would do it again. Needless to say, our friendship is drowning.



Oh. I got a tattoo. I will upload a picture when it's done healing so ya'll can see it. I won't say anymore about it though.


3 comments:

zette said...

i'm the same way with jeans. it doesn't matter if i can fit into all the others if the smallest pair won't look good. stoked to see your tattoo. stay strong, doll, &don't beat yourself about making mistakes. they're fixable.
xoxo
zette

Kat said...

Size zero? You really are super tiny. I know what you mean though, I freak out if I gain a half a pound. Sorry about your friend. I hate when having a boyfriend totally changes people. Can't wait to see your tattoo, and I hope you're able to cheer up soon.

~Cora

Jenn said...

Cant wait to see your new tattoo

xo