i hate being a liar.

But that's all I do now. I lie. To everyone. About everything. I lied to my Aunt when she asked me if I was gonna try and lose more weight. I lied to my Mom when she asked me if I was sending my boyfriend pictures again. I lied to my friend and laughed about how my Mom thought I had an 'eating disorder.' I lied to my boyfriend when he saw me paying way too much attention to what I eat.

WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO?!

How do I get out of this? Will I ever? Will I ever be able to erase all the lies I've told to myself? I'll never be innocent. I'll never be perfect. I'll never be clean. I'll never get out.