I'm finally on my way home from that hell hole. It was nice in the beginning, but i just wanted to get back home to my normal life and see my boyfriend. Speaking of, i must suck at relationships because he's threatened to break up with me at least four times in the past month. And every time i cry and beg him not to but i don't change for him. am i just a screw up? Like there's nothing wrong with him. He's great. So why don't i put more effort in? I feel like a just get scared by how long term this could be and i scream and run. God i need to get my brain in order.